Josh in Conversation with Rabbi Adina Allen

Josh in Conversation with Rabbi Adina Allen

We are grateful to Rabbi Adina Allen for sharing her insights with us. Please enjoy the conversation recording.

Rabbi Adina Allen is a spiritual leader, author, and educator who grew up in an art studio where she learned firsthand the power of creativity for connecting to self and to the Sacred. She is cofounder and creative director of Jewish Studio Project (JSP), an organization that is seeding a future in which every person is connected to their creativity as a force for healing, liberation and social transformation. Adina’s first book, The Place of All Possibility: Cultivating Creativity Through Ancient Jewish Wisdom, was published in July 2024 (Ayin Press). She is also a national media contributor, popular speaker, and workshop leader, and her writing can be found in scholarly as well as mainstream publications. Based on the work of her mother, renowned art therapist Pat B. Allen, Adina developed the Jewish Studio Process, a methodology for unlocking creativity, which she has brought to thousands of activists, educators, artists, and clergy across the country. Adina was ordained by Hebrew College in 2014 where she was a Wexner Graduate Fellow. Adina is the recipient of the Covenant Foundation’s 2018 Pomegranate Prize for emerging educational leaders. She and her family live in Berkeley, California.

The Place of All Possibility: Cultivating Creativity Through Ancient Jewish Wisdom is now available for purchase.

Responding to the Anxiety of Now: Vayera 5785

Responding to the Anxiety of Now: Vayera 5785

I was riding in a Lyft at 4:30 a.m. on Sunday morning, en route to LAX to make a flight home in time for my son’s 12th birthday party. My driver, a middle-aged African-American woman, asked me where I was headed. “Chicago.” 
 
“Chicago?! Take me with you! That’s where I’m from.”
 
“Oh, where in Chicago did you grow up?”
 
She proceeded to name what felt like 25 different neighborhoods: First she lived in Evergreen Park, then in Bronzeville, then in Rogers Park, then PIlsen, then another, and another, and another. It felt a little like the passage in the Torah that describes the 42 different places the Israelites encamped. I got the sense that she had experienced a lot of insecurity in her life.
 
I told her I was glad to have traveled to Los Angeles right after the election. It was a welcome change of scenery after the tension and divisiveness of the campaign.
 
“You know, I really don’t pay attention to politics,” she said. “I don’t vote. And you know why? Because I have panic attacks. I have so much stress and anxiety, and I just need to try and stay calm and focused so I can pay my bills. It’s a real struggle for me to stay calm–and all that election stuff doesn’t help.”
 
The conversation has lingered with me all week as I’ve talked with many others about the outcome of the election and how we’re each responding. Most of the people I interact with at work and in life are college-educated American Jews, and most of them are high-information voters. Many folks volunteered on campaigns, many donated money, and virtually all voted and paid attention to the election cycle. This lovely person who was my driver in the wee hours of Sunday morning lives a very different life.
 
What I was most struck by was how she described struggling with anxiety and depression–because that’s something it seems we all share. So many people in my life suffer in a similar way. For so many people, across socio-economic strata, our minds, our hearts, and our bodies are overwhelmed by the weight of the world. Yet, for many of the people I know, that anxiety gets channelled into even more compulsive engagement in the news–which is, perhaps, a sign of their relative privilege of not worrying quite as much about paying their bills on a month-to-month basis. I imagine there are many other lessons and explanations.
 
One of the people who suffers the most in Parashat Vayera (Genesis 18:1-22:24) is Hagar, Sarah’s handmaiden who is the mother of Ishmael. While Sarah originally had encouraged Abraham to have a child with Hagar, her mood changed almost immediately–and in this week’s Torah portion, now with a child of her own, she demands that Abraham kick Hagar out of the house. Hagar and her son find themselves dying of thirst in the wilderness, and Hagar, understandably, can’t bear to watch her son suffer. 
 
It’s at this moment that an angel calls out to Hagar and tells her that God has heard her son’s cry, ba’asher hu sham. It’s difficult to translate this phrase, but it suggests something like, “exactly where and how he is right now.” Rashi, following the Midrash, says it means that God hears and judges Ishamel exactly as he is in this moment–without consideration for what he may become in the future. And right now, he is a crying, suffering child.
 
Mindfulness practice teaches us to try to quiet the mind in order to be present with the truth we’re experiencing in this moment–not to become caught in the stories our minds can spin about what might be. That is, our practice encourages and guides us to listen to ourselves and others ba’asher hu sham–exactly as we are in this moment, not what we could be in the future. That’s not to say we shouldn’t be wise and discerning about what may come, or that we shouldn’t plan for the future. It’s rather to say that we should practice grounding ourselves in the truth of our experience right now, and from that grounded place try to make good judgments.
 
I think that’s an enormous struggle for many of us in the world we live in. For some of us, the constant overwhelm of media, the firehose of political news, the ongoing challenges in the Middle East–it can generate a state of anxiety about the world and what we take to be true. For others, like my Lyft driver, forces like economic precariousness and constant moving about might leave us without a sense of ground, an ability to feel really at home in our lives.
 
The invitation of our practice is to give ourselves the gift of acknowledging where we are, ba’asher hu sham–in this moment, in this time, in this place, in this body. When we do so, we have the opportunity to sense firmer ground beneath our feet, greater support amid the turbulent seas of life, water to drink amidst what can feel like a parched desert.
A Post-Election Practice: Cultivating Our Loving Intention

A Post-Election Practice: Cultivating Our Loving Intention

We live in a world that demands results. (And those results must come quickly enough to match our impatience). We live in a world that keeps score. (How are we doing?) We live in a world that is always comparing. (Am I better or worse, smarter, more righteous?) We live in a world that measures success by how much money we make or how many people like us.

I want to suggest another way to live.

I’m all for doing what I can to relieve suffering; I’m all for being kind, creating beauty, and bringing my loving attention to what needs healing. AND YET, I may or may not succeed in fixing this world. And perhaps fixing it is not the point.

Perhaps it is our loving intention that matters the most, whether or not we get results.

My soul tells me, “What you do is but the vehicle for how you do it, and who you become in the doing.” There’s something about this that feels so true and yet so counter-cultural. It turns the idea of accomplishment on its head.

When I rest in the realization that I am intimately connected to everyone and everything, I just relax. The part of me that is wound up in the habit of struggle, just unwinds. And then, whatever I do or say or create… is not coming from fear or lack or judgment.

If I do or say or create from the fullness of my love, from the truth of my connectedness, then I will not be attached to the results. Even as I write these words, I am not trying to sell you anything.

This is a different way of living. I know because I’ve been “selling” most all of my life. And now I’m getting a glimpse, a real taste of this different way, and I really like it.

This state of not being attached to results, does not make me dull or complacent. My passion for justice, beauty, and kindness is not dimmed. That passion is, rather, purified.

My passion, cleansed of fear, allows me to explore the far reaches of my capacity and strength, learning from every mistake.

We are so conditioned to wrestle with God, or with meaning. We are so conditioned to try to solve the problem that is this world of contradiction and suffering.

What if we turned our wrestling into a dance? What if we leaned into this world as a mystery to be experienced, rather than a problem to be solved?

Each moment we are given an opportunity to cultivate and refine this loving intention. It is a stance towards Life that we establish deliberately and then maintain with the quality of our presence. It is a decision to not be ruled by fear.

Rabbi Shefa Gold is a leader in ALEPH: the Alliance for Jewish Renewal and received her ordination both from the Reconstructionist Rabbinical College and from Rabbi Zalman Schachter-Shalomi (z”l). She is the director of C-DEEP, The Center for Devotional, Energy and Ecstatic Practice in Jemez Springs, New Mexico. She teaches workshops and retreats on the theory and art of Chanting, Devotional Healing, Spiritual Community-Building and Meditation. Information and resources at https://www.rabbishefagold.com/.

Finding God in the Depths

Finding God in the Depths

In times of darkness and struggle, what if the deepest divine connection is found not in the absence of hardship, but in the raw, authentic moments of longing and love shared with others? This teaching from Rebecca Schisler is an invitation to discover that the true power of the divine is always present—one breath, one moment, one prayer away—ready to be felt even in the most challenging of times.

Finding a haven in a turbulent world: Lekh-Lekha 5785

Finding a haven in a turbulent world: Lekh-Lekha 5785

Even though I went to bed early on Tuesday, before the election outcome was clear, I didn’t get much sleep. Try as I might — sleep meditations, visualizations, every trick I know—I couldn’t get my mind to stop spinning: so much uncertainty, so much at stake for so many of us. I just couldn’t settle down, and I tossed and turned all night.

I know many of you felt that way too.

When I finally got out of bed at 5:30 a.m. and made some coffee, I checked the news. While I grappled with the results, shaken, my first instinct was to study Torah. I started reading the weekly Torah portion. Sitting there reading Parashat Lekh-Lekha in the early morning darkness, I felt as if the Torah was enveloping me in an embrace, like a warm blanket.

Not because it was comforting to read these stories — they are profoundly difficult stories that touch on the many issues that challenge and divide us: migration, being strangers and welcoming strangers, gender and sexuality, treatment of women, bodily autonomy, war, conflicts over land, the taking of captives and their rescue — but because I found comfort and support in remembering that the Torah is a home, a sanctuary for me. And that’s when my tears started to flow, thinking about the sometimes brutally painful ways many of us have struggled and continue to struggle to feel secure, to feel at home. For many of us, the election results have only sharpened that profound feeling of insecurity.

In this time when many of us are deeply shaken, I want you to know that IJS is here to be a place where you can feel secure, and where you can find comfort and belonging.

Whatever happens in the days and years to come, we are here for you to be a sanctuary of calm, welcome, acceptance, and love that you can turn to when you need to breathe deeply and connect with others in our divisive and in many ways broken world.

On Monday night, during one of our special IJS meditation sits for election week, I led a practice that included a selection of a favorite teaching from Rabbi Menachem Nachum of Chernobyl’s Meor Einayim. It’s a text in which the rebbe says that every Jew has a root-soul that corresponds to a letter in the Torah. I take that to mean that each of us (and here I would extend his teaching to all human beings, not just Jews) has a spiritual home in the universe. I think that means that our avodah, our spiritual work, is ultimately about building a world in which every human being can experience that sense of belonging.

This is our commitment to you, now and always: Like Abraham and Sarah, who welcomed everyone under their tent and made them feel at home, we will be here for you as a sanctuary and spiritual haven in a turbulent world. It’s what we have sought to do for 25 years, and it is what we are committed to doing this week, next week, and into a redemptive future.

Confronting Chaos with Silence: Noach 5785

Confronting Chaos with Silence: Noach 5785

Here’s a historical tidbit I love to recite: Benjamin Franklin was born in 1706. Rabbi Israel ben Eliezer, the founder of Hasidism better known as the Ba’al Shem Tov, was born eight years earlier, in 1698. Which is to say, Franklin and the Besht were contemporaries.

I often mention this factoid when I teach Hasidic texts because I think that, while they emerged in different political and cultural landscapes, at root, Hasidism responded to some similar questions as the Enlightenment and the nascent American democratic project. Most significantly, perhaps, was this: What could spiritual experience look like in a world in which power does not reside exclusively in a king or emperor, but is rather shared among all citizens? Put differently, how does our conception of and relationship to the divine, one another, and ourselves, change when we take seriously the idea that all people are created equal?

Hasidism didn’t have a monopoly on these questions, of course. All modern expressions of Judaism—and religion in general—have responded to them in one way or another. And, eventually, some strains of Hasidism took an anti-democratic turn, investing spiritual authority in a tzaddik or rebbe who was treated as something like a king.

But I think one of the reasons that so many American Jews have been drawn to Hasidic teachings over the last two generations is because we experience a profound resonance between this approach to Torah and our deeply held values of liberty and equality. When the Hasidic masters teach that every Jew is the bearer of a divine spark, and that each and every one of us can create a home for the divine Presence with this breath or this word or this action, we hear an evocation of Jefferson’s words that “all men are created equal.” We experience a Torah that invites and demands of us a set of democratic impulses—so much so that, intuitively, we extend the sentiment of the Declaration to all people, not only men, and such Torah to all human beings, not only Jews.

It’s not a simple thing, to live life this way. Being aware of our thoughts and emotions, mindful and skillful in how we speak and act, present in every moment, requires practice–as does sacrificing and sharing power the way we have to in a democracy. We constantly have to tread a line–of exercising our agency and making choices, and, when that becomes infeasible or exhausting, trusting institutions and leaders we authorize to make choices for us. Sometimes it can feel easier to outsource our agency—to a rebbe or a Tzaddik, to someone we view as powerful or a savior. And sometimes our need for belonging can lead us down an emotional road in which it feels better, at least for a moment, to be self-righteously angry and resentful at “them,” those “others” who we allow ourselves to perceive as making our lives worse.

But that is not our way. That’s a form of aversion, a way of turning away from deep and difficult truths—most fundamentally, the truth that our seeming separation is an illusion, that we are indeed all interconnected, all created in the divine image, all mutually responsible for one another, as Jews, as Americans, as beings who are human.

Of course, the Torah begins with this teaching: Human beings are created in the Divine image. And, of course, it doesn’t take long for us to lose our way, as we read in this week’s Torah portion: “The earth became corrupt before the Holy One; the earth was filled with lawlessness” (Gen. 6:11). While the commentators offer various interpretations, a consistent theme is that we human beings managed to lose our capacity for self-awareness and self-regulation. We forgot that we are not the centers of our own universes, and instead took people and property simply because we wanted to. We lost our internal sense of honor, and thus we could not honor the inherent dignity of God’s creations. In short, human beings became mindless.

What to do? The answer, after unleashing the forces of chaos upon the world, was to start over with the most basic awareness: Don’t shed blood. Stop killing each other. And then: learn to trust. “I now establish my brit, my covenant with you,” God tells Noah (Gen. 9:9). Rashi observes, “God said this because Noah feared to fulfill the duty of propagating the species until the Holy Blessed One promised to not destroy the world again.” How could Noah bring children into the world again? He had to learn to trust on the other side of intense, unprecedented trauma.

There are lessons here that apply to individuals as much as nations: What does it take to trust after destruction and devastation? What does it take to live mindfully, lovingly, as a home for the Divine presence, when the storm feels like it’s approaching, when the earth beneath our feet feels like it’s turning to mud on the way to being covered in water altogether? These are some dark questions–terrifying questions we may not want to ask. And yet the story of Noah demands that we confront them.

A classic Hasidic teaching on Noah finds meaning in the fact that the word for ark in Hebrew, teivah, also means word. Thus when Noah’s family and the animals enter the ark, they enter into language in its most reduced and elemental form. As the earth unravels, so too does language. And, as the earth is renewed, language too is renewed. But during the storm, I imagine there may have been long periods of silence, or wordless niggunim, inside the ark.

In a letter to John Adams in December 1818, following the death of Abigail, Adams’s wife and partner (Adams’s word) of 50 years, Thomas Jefferson wrote, “I know well, and feel what you have lost, what you have suffered, are suffering, and have yet to endure. The same trials have taught me that, for ills so immeasurable, time and silence are the only medicines.” Around the same time, Rebbe Nachman of Bratslav taught that “Silence is a hedge for wisdom… Like Shabbat, it is above speech, the root of speech, and the remedy for speech” (Likkutei Halachot Shabbat 7:43:6).

As we head into these final days of the election and enter what is likely to be a difficult post-election season, I find that my practice is more important than ever–and I imagine that may be true for you. Our language feels like it’s being tested to its limits, and nourishing silence or wordless song feels like a refuge. And perhaps that’s precisely what we need to heal and renew ourselves, as individuals and as a society–fewer and better words, deeper and richer shared silences, longer and more beautiful shared songs. May it be so; may we make it so.